Just some bladiebla from a teenage girl

“What’s teenage love? It’s staying up late for each other & barely staying awake in class the next day. It’s passing each other between classes & stopping to say Hi, but ending up running to your next class right before the bell rings. It’s going to the mall, wandering around hand in hand, with a silence that’s comfortable. It’s watching a movie in the theaters with his arm slowly creeping onto your shoulders, & you resting your head in his arms. It’s walking around at night, for no reason at all; his chest, her head, looking at the stars. It’s uncertainty of how long it will last, a risk you’re both willing to take, even if it means you’ll have a broken heart. It’s not yet true love, not like, nor lust, nor infatuation. It’s teenage love, here to stay, here to play with our hearts & never to go away.”

“I want a boy who would sing to me at random moments. Someone who is more goofy than romantic. A boy who would throw stuffed animals at me when I’m acting dumb. Someone who would bet me kisses that he could beat me at all the old playstation games & then let me win. A guy who would make fun of me just to hear my laugh. Someone who I could share lollipops with & lay on a blanket with to count the stars. We’d buy tonsof disposable cameras to take the silliest pictures & squirt water guns at each other. Someone who would just always make me smile.”

(via jesuisrachel)

Because Spongebob and his little friends are way too cool.

On my birthday, June 10th, I’ve been given a Rubiks Cube. Since that day, which is more than half a year ago, I’ve been trying to figure it out. I’ve actually lost hope by now, but I began shifting around some moments ago and now I’m closer to the solution than ever! *proud* Only a shame I should be studying my ass off to pass a biology exam. I have until Tuesday, but this is my weak point and I haven’t started studing for the other exams, so.. I’m a bit.. screwed, you know.

Another one. In my opinion a lovely location, and all this just looking out of my window (OK, and a bit zooming with my camera…)

Just got home after school. I’ve spent more time on my bike than I’ve actually been in class. Sigh, the snow is getting quite annoying. But when I was just about opening the front door to get in, I heard this sound of a dog barking. I looked and saw this girl. And as if it was meant to be, the first thing I saw when I walked in, was my camera, laying in the hallway, so I grabbed it and took this picture. I think it turned out lovely.

Tonight I saw a show in the theatre with a friend of mine (Ronald Goedemondt, cabaret). It was so much fun, we’ve laughed a lot. Only getting there was less pleasant. Screw the ice on the roads! Normally I go everywhere by bike, but today that was impossible. And catching the randstadrail didn’t work out as I hope for. When I got on the platform, the sign said “arriving in 2 minutes”. I sat down and didn’t look for some time, but when I turned my head again, the damned thing was suddenly announcing a delay, 15 minutes! This made it impossible to get there on time! I decided to walk, because that would be even faster than waiting for this stupid train. I felt so bad, because the girl didn’t have a cellphone, so she would be waiting, now knowing where the hell I was. Normally I’m always on time, or maybe a few minutes later, but not like. I ran for quite some time, and eventually got there 15 minutes late. She was waiting right next to a clock, so I got confronted with it immediately. She didn’t mind, but still.. screw RandstadRail! There’s always a problem with the damned thing when I try to use it.

Oh, about the picture.. when walking towards the theatre, I went through the centre. The shops were already closed, so I was the only person. Well, this is it, in those streets I wander around and buy my clothes.

A while ago I bought a scrapbook with the intention being more creative. This is the only thing I did so far, but I’m planning to update it. Hopefully I can find the time. Probably in summer, after my GCSE’s. But at least I’ve already got some ideas. By the way, I’m also planning to keep up a diary (private, which means it will not appear on the internet). I would love to write my memories down to avoid the risk of them being deleted by my mind without me knowing. There are wandering so many things around in my head I NEVER want to forget, because when I think of them, I get such a nice feeling.

Survived the first day back in class. It was partly as I had expected. I felt happy to see them again, we laughed a lot, we didn’t do much and I didn’t really pay attention to what the teacher was telling. Not on purpose, I don’t know what my problem is lately, but I don’t have any focus any more. Yeah, I’m in love, so my thought shift away every few minutes, but I don’t know, I don’t always think about that when I’m not paying attention. I’m like, sleeping.

But this time I had an excuse. We didn’t expect the snow at all. During the whole biology class I have stared out of the window, watching the snowflakes whirling down and throwing a white blanket over the environment. It was beautiful, and it still is outside.

When I was heading back home I saw little children in winter fashion, with a scarf and all. They looked adorable and I hated myself for not having brought my camera. I saw the most perfect locations, but with snow cycling is tough, so going back wasn’t really an option. Luckily there were some possibilities closer to home too.

Until now, 2010 is a lovely year. You can leave everything that happened last year behind you. Your broken heart, the experiences which made you feel sad and the people who have been annoying. On new year’s eve, I felt like there was no need to worry about the past, because it’s over now. The feeling is only short, because when the year starts, you see them back, you see him back, and her.

Though it still feels good, you know why? Because I haven’t even been near my school this year. But you can’t live the good life all day long. After a few hours of sleep I will be experiencing one of those exciting days as a 6VWO student. It’s my final year and the second bunch of exams are getting close, too close.

Actually I don’t mind going back there, I even look forward to it. I’ve never experienced that before, but the vibe in our class gets better every day. I’m not a person who misses somebody quickly unless I care a lot about him or her. So when I tell you I miss you, you know I actually mean, I love you (: And there are now a few people I do want to see as soon as possible.

But still the feeling my freedom has been taken away is very present. That’s why I submitted this picture, just taken while staring out of the window. The clouds are slowly shifting over the moon. You know it will disappear, you can’t help it, so you wait until it happens. I feel the same right now.